White Noise

We'll see where this leads...

So right now I'm trying to figure out what it is I want to do with my life.

I was at a job interview last week and the interviewer asked me why I had chosen Physics for my major in university... I blurted out the same answer I always give when posed with this question (yes it comes up a lot). I told the woman that I love science and I am good at math so physics seemed like a good combination of the two and an obvious choice for me. My answer isn't exactly a lie, I do like science and I am good at math but so what, that isn't why I chose physics, the truth is I don't know why I chose physics. Don't get me wrong, some days I really love what I am learning and am truly inspired by physics but I wonder sometimes if I really have what it takes to become a physicist and if I do, is that what I want to become?

I wish that my path in life seemed a little more clear to me. Right now I feel like I'm running in place and I can't wait until I can finally start living my grown-up life (like living in my own house and having a career and getting married and having kids). I think I am most excited about living in my own house, right now I live with roommates who are all really nice but I am so looking forward to having my very own space that I can do whatever I want with and even more than that - having my own fridge so that when I open it up and see food I don't have to think "is that mine?".

This uncertainty in the direction of where my life is headed has got me thinking a lot lately and I have decided to take some action. I used to do volunteer work, granted its never been huge amounts but still I enjoyed it. I haven't done any for quite some time now though because of a lack of free time but I can always find more time if I try hard enough; so my decision is to get back into it. My thinking is that maybe if I start to volunteer more for different things I might find something that I really like to do and therefore might want to persue as a career. I don't know if this plan will work but even if it doesn't I'll still be doing something good and gaining life experiences so it won't be a total failure. My first endevour back into the world of volunteering will hopefully be the Waterloo Region Children's Museum (as long as they'll have me). OK, so thats it for now, I'll keep you posted.

If any of you have any other suggestions, I welcome them. Comments too.

Sorry this one got kinda long.

posted by bex @ 6:39 PM